Matthew Santiago Jr. “MJ”, Donor

M.J. Peyton loves you so much. She loved on you while you were sleeping.

Best friends 12/2012

M.J., Hello my son. I miss you dearly. Over the weekend I was able to finally see Peyton. It was a wonderful visit full of smiles and a little bit of happy tears. She asked "where is my O.J. mommy"? She knows that you are with the Angels baby. She misses you so much. I know she really doesn't understand, and is a bit confused about where you are. Make sure you visit her from time to time. I feel as if you may be resting now, as I don't feel your presence as much as I used to. I yearn to feel your presence again soon. I love you to the moon and back. Love, Mommy

Susan S just registered to become a donor in honor of Matthew Santiago Jr. “MJ”

Hi M.J. this is your cousin Michelle, You never meet me but I'm your mom cousin and your tata (big Ray) cousin. I wish I did meet you, it sucks I didn't. But I could just feel in my heart what kind of special, loving lil boy you were in my heart. May you now R.I.P babyboy and watch over your mommy. Xoxo I'll talk to you soon again...

Good morning Boobie, tomorrow is another court date for your mommy. Please provide your strength to do what you can and what is right for the well being of my Little Sookie. I was able to speak with Peyton one time 2 weeks ago and haven't been able to speak with her since then. I was so happy to hear her voice and especially happy to hear her laugh. However I was very saddened when conversation was coming to an end. I was attempting to end call when Peyton says to me "I love you Nana and my Tata" she then said I can't find my Momma and I need to go to school". This crushed my heart to hear her say this, please help Peyton get back to us so she can return back to her daily routine that she is use to. We miss you Boobie, Love Nana

M.J., Hello son :) I am thinking of you. I always think about how you always had your favorite "Dallas Cowboys" blanket with you wherever we went. When you would walk around with it, you would have a part of your blanket hanging off your left shoulder and the rest of your blanket you would drag behind you. You were so cute. You reminded me so much of Linus from Charlie Brown. That blanket went through everything with you. It had seen the washer machine so many times, that it started to fall apart. It was often used for tug-o-war between you and your sister. I crack myself up when I think about how you would sit on a part of your blanket while Peyton pulled on a corner of it and she would drag you around the house. You would hold on and the both of you would just giggle. Peyton would say "hold on O.J." as she never called you M.J. You both were so close, like best friends. You two were inseparable. I loved how when I would drop off and pick you both up from daycare you greeted each other with a kiss and a hug. You two loved each other so much. I loved watching the two of you interact with each other. I love you to the moon and back. Love, Mommy

M.J. I remember when I would take you and Peyton to the park to feed the ducks. You would start to giggle when the ducks would come toward you and start quacking. Peyton would always scare them because she would yell at them and chase them away. I often go to the park to feed the ducks. It is not the same without you and Peyton. I remember taking you both to the playground after feeding the ducks. Peyton loved the swings, but you absolutely hated the swings. You threw a fit when I tried to put you in the swing. Once I took you out of the swing and your feet hit the ground you took off. As you always did. You had the shortest little legs, but you were so fast. You loved climbing and sliding down the slide. It always made me happy to see both of my babies happy and enjoying themselves. I miss you so much. I will forever cherish the beautiful memories I have of you. I love you to the moon and back. Love, Mommy

I HAVE REGISTERED AS A DONOR IN MY GRANDSON'S HONOR. MJ, YOU ARE MISSED DEARLY. OUR HEARTS ARE EXTREMELY HEAVY HAVING TO BE WITHOUT YOU, WE LOVE YOU AND WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH US . PLEASE KEEP PEYTON SAFE AND BRING HER BACK HOME TO US SOON, WE MISS HER SO MUCH.

M.J. I miss you son. The holidays have been really difficult for me. It is not the same without you and your sister. I can still see you and Peyton opening Christmas presents from last year at Nana and Tata's house. You were so infatuated with the ABC blocks that you got from your Tia Bridgette. You were repeatedly dumping your blocks out on the floor and then putting all of your blocks back in the container they came in. You did that for about 15 minutes. It was so cute. It saddens me that your gone and we won't be able to spend anymore holidays together, but I know you are always there in spirit. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. Everywhere I go and everything I do there seems to always be something that reminds me of you. That is why I know you are always with me, wherever I go. M.J., Mommy knows that you do not want me to be sad. It is so hard. When I began to cry I think of your bright smile, it makes me happy and for a moment the hurt and pain goes away. I would give anything to see you again even if it is just for a moment. A moment would be all that I would need. I love you to the moon and back M.J. Love, Mommy

M.J. you will be missed. Forever in our hearts.

I remember your bare feet down the hallway I remember your little laugh Race cars on the kitchen floor, plastic dinosaurs I love you to the moon and back I remember your brown eyes looking into mine Like we had our own secret club I remember you dancing before bed time Then jumping on me, waking me up I can still feel you hold my hand, little man And even the moment I knew You fought it hard like an army guy Remember I leaned in and whispered to you Come on M.J. with me, we're gonna fly away from here You were my best three years I remember the drive home When the blind hope turned to crying and screaming "Why?" Flowers pile up in the worst way, no one knows what to say About a beautiful boy who died And it's about to be Halloween You could be anything you wanted if you were still here I remember the last day when I kissed your face And whispered in your ear Come on M.J. with me, we're gonna fly away from here Out of this curtained room in this hospital grey, we'll just disappear Come on M.J. with me, we're gonna fly away from here You were my best three years What if I'm standing in your closet trying to talk to you? What if I kept the hand-me-downs you won't grow into? And what if I really thought some miracle would see us through? What if the miracle was even getting one moment with you? Come on M.J. with me, we're gonna fly away from here Come on M.J. with me, we're gonna fly away from here You were my best three years I remember your bare feet down the hallway I love you to the moon and back I love and miss you my beautiful Angel. Love, Mommy

Good Morning Boobie, saw your bright shining star again this morning. We're praying that everything will turn out good today "the way it should turn out". Please help bring our little Sookie back to us, we love and miss both of you so much. Keep shining bright my little Angel and continue to watch over Peyton and keep her safe. Luv Nana

Good Morning Boobie, Nana's thinking of you always. Trying to get through another day, I miss you so much.... I'm yearning to hear your laughter and sense your presence, as we have done many times in our home. It's a beautiful experience to feel your presence and know that you are around so much. I am saddened to almost feel that you are not resting because of all the disconnect that we are going through with Peyton. We love and miss you both so much, hoping this will all be over soon and you will be able to rest and we will be reunited with my little Sookie...... Nana luv's you Boobie

M.J. Hello my son. I miss you so much and would give anything to see you or feel your little hands touch my face again. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I remember the first time I met you. I was so happy. I felt so blessed to have a beautiful and healthy baby boy. M.J. you were truly a blessing son. I will forever cherish all of the memories and the short time I was able to have you. You were always such a good baby, always so happy. Sometimes I hope to walk into the kitchen and see your little toy cars lined up side by side. Or to hear you laugh, or say MUM...I hope to hear your little feet pitter patter down the tile floor in the hallway. I miss playing peek-a-boo with you and trying to scare you and you would just laugh. I miss you sitting on/or next to me watching your favorite movies with you Cars, Cars 2 and Wreck-it-Ralph. You were always so loving and sweet. I miss holding you in my arms and you resting your head on my shoulder. Or me patting your back as you would gently pat mine. I remember how you would blow me kisses, or dance when I would sing to you. I find myself at times eating your favorite foods such as Chicken Nuggets, Gold Fish and Cherrios dry in a bowl with a cup of milk on the side just the way you liked it. You were a borrowed Angel baby.God had better plans for your life.You have touched the lives of so many people. You forever changed the lives of four people and their families. You gave them the greatest gift ever. I am so proud to be your Mom. You are always with me. I love you son.

I just want to send my best wishes on MJ's birthdate. It's amazing how a little guy like MJ can bless so many other lives......God had a special plan for him from the beginning:). My prayers are with all of you always.

I'm a donor RIP MY LIL COUSIN YOU LEFT YOUR MARK ON THIS BEAUTIFUL WORLD IN YOUR HONOR I WILL BE A DONOR BLESSINGS BABY BOY ♥

May you Rest in Peace, MJ <3Jew

We love and miss you M.J. Love Mommy, Peyton and Family

I miss you my son. I love you!